I Will Never Know..
Befor i go to sleep every singel day , while staring at the dark and befor my eye's get peace with the dark and be able to see , i ask my self
Why im crying right now?
why my eye's even when they are closed still all the photo's , all the smile's , all the tears ?
why God let me here? does he hate me? love me? forget all about me ?
why do i hate love story's and also goodbye's ?
and their only one photo in my mind...of an old lady i dont even know her name
and the track of 60 jazz music i have never hear befor
why when i look to the cloud's i see them like uncompleted puzzle of my soul?
why do i still feeling her touch? even that she hurt me like hell? even that she was the worth i have ever seen?
and when i walk by the sea .. all that im able to see is happy seagull singing that song all the day long ?
i smile after my tear goes away , i always do
i don't really know what im doing , or even why..
but i don't care , tears and smiling are just part of plan
a plan that start every single day
a plan that have no dictation
a plan that i will never be able to understand
im not depressed and not alone
im not crying because im sad , and will never be smile because im happy
if this your way to judge people , so let me tell you, you with the wrong guy to do this
i will never know alot of thing's in this world
and i dont give a damn
i will never know alot of thing about my self
and still don't give a damn
i will never know if i will ever see your face and touch you again
and i will never give a damn
what im sure of is that...
when i will go to sleep it will take time..